Fall

"When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my friends are my energy."

These days, I've had to close my eyes or look at my walls or small albums to see those friends, to see those I love and miss, those who have changed my life in more ways than they know.

Then I open my eyes and remember that I am in a new city, a new life, a new job, a new apartment, living with new people. This is when I feel most alone.

God has been prodding me though, revealing the connectedness there is within this life. He is "inviting" me to become more faithful, to devote more of myself to Him. I wish I knew what I am supposed to be doing, what the point of me is.

I think too much too often. This has started to grate on me once again. Funny how my favorite season of the year has become the very season where I "fall."

I hope this time I fall into a better version of myself and skip the rocky road. I hope...

"Here it comes, a better version of me."

Song that got me through today:
"Love is Neverending"
Thanks, Mr. Paisley.