Stuck?

Thoughts of the future have pulled me out of the present and have gotten me stuck in ideas, dreams, and plans for the future. The coming year promises to be life-altering in the path that I decide to take (or, more like, the path that opens itself up to me). Yesterday I had my first official realization that I actually have a talent, and that talent is marketable in the right place. Now, I am not at the skill level to be able to make an actual income from this talent- but there is a possibility that I could get there, and sooner than I ever would have predicted. I have discovered one great truth about working in the arts. Given, it has been screaming at me the entire time I've thought about my potential career path; but now it is actually starting to be lived out in my own life. The truth is about NETWORKING:

The most important thing about finding a gig (or job, etc.) is not who you know, but who knows you.

I read that in a book recently, and am coming to know how true that actually is. By doing Birdy, I made some contacts. Now I have another gig lined up. This gig has the potential to lead to more gigs. I have come into one corner of a very complex web of people, and the opportunities are endless, in terms of making connections and finding people to work with.

My immediate future

The potential not-so-distant future
My choice of career: This? or This? or...

New York City has finally sunk its claws into me, and I am not sure if I am going to be able to leave easily. When I do leave, I don't think I'll be able to stay away for long. There's so much promise here... and it's just plain a good place to live, especially being a young 20-something with... dreams.
Too bad it costs so much... the whole income thing could be a problem.

Post-pardem

Birdy and the Golden Putter is now over and I am back to "business as usual." I am excited, since I'll have time to hang out with my teens again, but am bummed that I don't have live theatre to do anymore. Also, I don't know what to do with my evenings when I don't have anything going on... I've started to watch mondo amounts of tv again. This could be a problem.

The whole experience of designing a show and running a board has normally been full of mixed emotions for me. The one show I designed professionally in Spokane was more strife than I thought it was worth at the time. I know now that it was not as bad as I was making it, but I do acknowledge that it was a challenge that I was glad to complete. (I saw the show once in production and that was it, I never really got attached.) In college, I never had to run the board during the run of one of my lighting designs; so I also never had that feeling of attachment- my job was over before the audience came into the picture. So Birdy was unique in that way. Not only did I design the lighting, I was there to run it for every one of the ten performances. It was a good show too; so much fun to watch and take part in. So I got slightly attached. Without anything else creative to work on, I feel like I've been pushed off of a cliff. I'm just in mid-air, waiting to be grounded at any moment- but right now I have no firm footing on anything and miss the ground I used to walk on.

Hmm... I think I'm being a tad dramatic. I guess it's just hard to go from creative expression with fun people every night to total inactivity. I want to doooooo something.

I should be hearing about some internships within the next few weeks, so that's something to look forward to... I guess (especially if I have an actual chance). Who knows though, I have no clue if they'll think I'm qualified.