Post-pardem

Birdy and the Golden Putter is now over and I am back to "business as usual." I am excited, since I'll have time to hang out with my teens again, but am bummed that I don't have live theatre to do anymore. Also, I don't know what to do with my evenings when I don't have anything going on... I've started to watch mondo amounts of tv again. This could be a problem.

The whole experience of designing a show and running a board has normally been full of mixed emotions for me. The one show I designed professionally in Spokane was more strife than I thought it was worth at the time. I know now that it was not as bad as I was making it, but I do acknowledge that it was a challenge that I was glad to complete. (I saw the show once in production and that was it, I never really got attached.) In college, I never had to run the board during the run of one of my lighting designs; so I also never had that feeling of attachment- my job was over before the audience came into the picture. So Birdy was unique in that way. Not only did I design the lighting, I was there to run it for every one of the ten performances. It was a good show too; so much fun to watch and take part in. So I got slightly attached. Without anything else creative to work on, I feel like I've been pushed off of a cliff. I'm just in mid-air, waiting to be grounded at any moment- but right now I have no firm footing on anything and miss the ground I used to walk on.

Hmm... I think I'm being a tad dramatic. I guess it's just hard to go from creative expression with fun people every night to total inactivity. I want to doooooo something.

I should be hearing about some internships within the next few weeks, so that's something to look forward to... I guess (especially if I have an actual chance). Who knows though, I have no clue if they'll think I'm qualified.