Senioritis has struck!
Since the departure of my good friend, I have started to find it quite the challenge to be motivated to do any of the work I should be doing. Some things have just started to... not matter as much. I have found that right now I truly wish I could just focus on the friendships and the relationships that I have developed these past years. People are more important to me. Too bad I won't be able to help that many people unless I finish this dang degree.
Apparently I should hear tomorrow or the next day from those who interviewed me for JVC. I really hope that I make it in. If I don't... well, I am pretty interested in what God has planned for me instead. If I don't make it, then I have been totally misreading the signals in my life. I hope there is something out there for me to do.
One month until graduation. I can't believe it is that close. I can't believe that a year has gone by so fast. I can't believe how much of my college career was squandered away. I can't believe how many loans I am going to have to pay off.
I should go to bed now. I guess I only have one thing left to mention that is on my mind right now - I love how certain people can just lighten up my day. Whether if it is through the exchange of a look (of understanding or annoyance) or through a phone call from a distant place, I am so happy that I have those people who constantly make things a little brighter. It's like God has bestowed me with a team of misfits, with each member playing a role in the course of my life. Some support me when I am down, some are there to laugh with me when I am up, and some who are there all the time that just "get" me. I seem to be a simple person with a light side and a dark side, but really, I have a ton of layers that are only revealed around "team misfit."
I guess the part that really baffles me, is the fact that I am actually able to feel like I am worth the effort of the "team." I can honestly say that this is the first time in my life that I feel like I have true friendships - people that I know will always be honest with me, will challenge who I see myself as, and who will not be pushed away easily.
I hope they see me in the same light. I would do anything for them.
Apparently I should hear tomorrow or the next day from those who interviewed me for JVC. I really hope that I make it in. If I don't... well, I am pretty interested in what God has planned for me instead. If I don't make it, then I have been totally misreading the signals in my life. I hope there is something out there for me to do.
One month until graduation. I can't believe it is that close. I can't believe that a year has gone by so fast. I can't believe how much of my college career was squandered away. I can't believe how many loans I am going to have to pay off.
I should go to bed now. I guess I only have one thing left to mention that is on my mind right now - I love how certain people can just lighten up my day. Whether if it is through the exchange of a look (of understanding or annoyance) or through a phone call from a distant place, I am so happy that I have those people who constantly make things a little brighter. It's like God has bestowed me with a team of misfits, with each member playing a role in the course of my life. Some support me when I am down, some are there to laugh with me when I am up, and some who are there all the time that just "get" me. I seem to be a simple person with a light side and a dark side, but really, I have a ton of layers that are only revealed around "team misfit."
I guess the part that really baffles me, is the fact that I am actually able to feel like I am worth the effort of the "team." I can honestly say that this is the first time in my life that I feel like I have true friendships - people that I know will always be honest with me, will challenge who I see myself as, and who will not be pushed away easily.
I hope they see me in the same light. I would do anything for them.
posted by K-Q-T @ 10:52 PM
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